Saturday, August 28, 2010
Lost Password
Ok so I couldn't remember my password AND when I tried to figure it out. I answered the questions with answers that I couldn't remember!!!! LOL I was trying to make it to where nobody would be able to crack my password or questions. In doing so I made it to where I couldn't even do it! I tried and tried and figured out my answers, since I didn't make a recovery email. UGH! ((bangs head)) So now I'm back!!! Man sometimes I could just kick myself. The more you get to know me the more you will realize I do stuff like that often along with drop and trip over everything!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Back Home...but....
Ok we made it back home, but we are leaving again after only being home not even 1 hour. Dr Jekyll needs a book for his class which starts Friday so we are going to have to pick it up 3 hours away. Otherwise, they can send it to him, but they said it will take about a week and he just can't risk it. I think we are going to be spending the right there as well. Right now we are at a gas station. Oh and this time I remembered to bring my camera! I don't know if there will be anything worthy of taking pictures, but we'll see!!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Another Day Out of Town...
We had a pretty good day and were on the go most of the day. Unfortunately Mr Hyde showed his ugly face a few times and put a damper on the mood at times. I took pics on my phone but since I'm in and out of roaming here it wouldn't let me send them to my email. I'll have to do it tomorrow when I get home.
My baby turned 7 months today!!! She is still a Teeny Tiny Hiney.. We bought her a 0-3 outfit and it was too big! I can't believe how time goes by so fast... She has such a personality and her laugh is to die for! She even sings! Well, I sing to her all the time and she tries so hard to copy me and sounds so pretty! I'm still nursing her which is another miracle since I only breastfed my daughters a few weeks and I pumped with my son until a few months after he got out of the hospital. I'm so flippin proud of us!
Another thing that was good was my brother FINALLY called. He was in IL for the Gathering for about a week and I was worried about him. My mom nor I had heard from him since he left. He said he was out in the boonies and had no service. The last time he went to the Gathering I thought I heard from him a few times. Oh well, at least he got home safe and I'm no longer worrying about him.
We are leaving back home in the morning. Dr Jekyll did say that he might want to move here. I think that is a great idea. I really really like it here and the weather is beautiful!
My baby turned 7 months today!!! She is still a Teeny Tiny Hiney.. We bought her a 0-3 outfit and it was too big! I can't believe how time goes by so fast... She has such a personality and her laugh is to die for! She even sings! Well, I sing to her all the time and she tries so hard to copy me and sounds so pretty! I'm still nursing her which is another miracle since I only breastfed my daughters a few weeks and I pumped with my son until a few months after he got out of the hospital. I'm so flippin proud of us!
Another thing that was good was my brother FINALLY called. He was in IL for the Gathering for about a week and I was worried about him. My mom nor I had heard from him since he left. He said he was out in the boonies and had no service. The last time he went to the Gathering I thought I heard from him a few times. Oh well, at least he got home safe and I'm no longer worrying about him.
We are leaving back home in the morning. Dr Jekyll did say that he might want to move here. I think that is a great idea. I really really like it here and the weather is beautiful!
Monday, August 16, 2010
Out of Town!
We got a new van today so we finally could go on a little trip as a family. We haven't done that in the 5 years we have been together! We have stayed in the same town except when we were 4 hours away when our son was in the NICU 4 years ago.
The weather here is so nice! Even though it's only about a bit over one hour away from where we live the temperature is about 25 degrees cooler. I so wish the weather was like this back home! We stopped at a place called K-Bobs to eat at...it was ok... Boy did my son get stared at like he was some criminal! UGH and what was worse is the faces and stares I got for breastfeeding my daughter there at the restaurant! I put on my nursing poncho which covers all around me, so it's not like you could see any flesh on me at all. Dr Jekyll thought it was funny, but it just made me mad. Would they rather hear a screaming baby while trying to eat?
We are going to stay in this town for 2 days. Right now we are at a Motel 6 and Dr Jekyll got some brochures to look at. There is "Horse Back Riding For the Whole Family","Fishing Pedal Boats","Berry Picking" and also a historical site. If you ask me I would like to go to the historical site. I forgot my Nikon!!!! I guess my cell will have to do! I'll take pictures and post them in my next post if I can. I'm not sure what we are going to do tomorrow, but lets pray Mr Hyde doesn't show up!
The weather here is so nice! Even though it's only about a bit over one hour away from where we live the temperature is about 25 degrees cooler. I so wish the weather was like this back home! We stopped at a place called K-Bobs to eat at...it was ok... Boy did my son get stared at like he was some criminal! UGH and what was worse is the faces and stares I got for breastfeeding my daughter there at the restaurant! I put on my nursing poncho which covers all around me, so it's not like you could see any flesh on me at all. Dr Jekyll thought it was funny, but it just made me mad. Would they rather hear a screaming baby while trying to eat?
We are going to stay in this town for 2 days. Right now we are at a Motel 6 and Dr Jekyll got some brochures to look at. There is "Horse Back Riding For the Whole Family","Fishing Pedal Boats","Berry Picking" and also a historical site. If you ask me I would like to go to the historical site. I forgot my Nikon!!!! I guess my cell will have to do! I'll take pictures and post them in my next post if I can. I'm not sure what we are going to do tomorrow, but lets pray Mr Hyde doesn't show up!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
SO WHAT!
So what if I let my 4 year old have a Mohawk. He loves it and it was his choice. If people don't like it they need to not look or turn away instead of making the"I smell crap" face while looking at my son. He is the same kid he was when we had his head shaved. I tell him not to care about what people think of him. I also let my child be who he wants to be. Who cares if he is Hispanic with a Mohawk mind your business!. Do you see me making faces at kids when they act like fools running around the store without someone watching them? No, because I mind my business like people should mind theirs.
That's one of the reasons why I NEVER go ANYWHERE because of judgemental people that like to make faces at little 4 year olds. Maybe next time I should let my son speak his mind to them when he asks me "why does that person smell" or "That lady looks like Donkey from Shrek". If they want to look at my son with those ugly faces I'm not going to tell him "Shhhh be nice" when he is making a remark about them.
He is a kid let him be a kid! The little things make him happy and I'm not going to be the parent with the stick up my butt worrying about what everyone and their mama thinks about my son having a Mohawk. I think it looks pretty flippin cool if you ask me. My mom hates it, but she will have to live with it like everyone else until he wants it gone IF he wants it gone...NO sooner!
That's one of the reasons why I NEVER go ANYWHERE because of judgemental people that like to make faces at little 4 year olds. Maybe next time I should let my son speak his mind to them when he asks me "why does that person smell" or "That lady looks like Donkey from Shrek". If they want to look at my son with those ugly faces I'm not going to tell him "Shhhh be nice" when he is making a remark about them.
He is a kid let him be a kid! The little things make him happy and I'm not going to be the parent with the stick up my butt worrying about what everyone and their mama thinks about my son having a Mohawk. I think it looks pretty flippin cool if you ask me. My mom hates it, but she will have to live with it like everyone else until he wants it gone IF he wants it gone...NO sooner!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
To Blame or Not To Blame
I wasn't raised like this. My dad was in the Navy for 23 years and retired. Our family didn't go to jail and such. Someone could have gotten hurt or worse been killed. I feel like this is my fault in a way..
My dad is an alcoholic. He has been for as long as I can remember. He would wake up drinking and go through 60 some beers in less than 2 days. Well, a little over a month ago he quit cold turkey. My church and I prayed and prayed and he quit! I was so happy! I allowed him in my house and around my kids. He started going to church with us and was happy.
My dad called last night 2 times in a row and left a message on my voice mail. He didn't sound like his sober self. I know my dad and had a feeling he was drinking. He called from my aunts house, so I knew something was going on. I didn't call him back till this morning and could tell in his voice that he was drinking again. He asked how I was and the kids and I told him fine. When I asked him how he was he said he was being a "pendejo". I asked why and he said "because that's who I am." He then let me go. I just knew he was drinking but didn't know the extent of what had happened. I went on my facebook and had a message from my uncle saying I'm sorry about your dad. He mentioned that he heard from another uncle and then saw in the paper. He asked about fines and such. I had no idea what he was talking about. I sent him a message asking what was going on and then decided to look online my self. This is what I found. I changed his name to "My Dad" and made the locations blank.
"My Dad, 50, of , , was arrested for alleged DWI subsequent to the investigation of a motor vehicle collision at Road and Avenue. My Dad was additionally cited for alleged careless driving, no insurance and display of current valid registration. My Dad was incarcerated at to appear in Municipal Court"
How is it my fault? Well, a few weeks ago I starting getting sick. It's been so hot here and was making it worse. I walk around the house in a shirt or a nursing tank and boy shorts. I would never let my dad see me like this so I haven't had him over. He would call and I wasn't good at returning his calls since I was too tired or just didn't want to talk. He went camping last weekend and came by before he left. I talked to him on Monday for a short while before he said he would call back. When he called back it was about time for me to go to bed so I didn't answer. He came by Tuesday the day all this happened in the early afternoon. It was too hot and I didn't want to put clothes on so I didn't answer the door.
If I would have kept going to church despite the way I have been feeling and relied on God to heal me, my dad would have been going to Church with us. If I would have just sucked it up and dealt with the heat then my dad could have came here and hung out instead of being in the middle of nowhere (where he lives alone). He wouldn't have had time to even think about drinking being around his grand kids. If I would have returned his call and talked to him....If I would have let him in my house the day this happened he could have hung out here spent the night and went to church on Wednesday. This would have never happened if I would have been a better daughter.
Dr. Jekyll says this isn't my fault and that he made that choice. But, I as a daughter should have known that my dad needed me and I let him down. My heart aches and I'm hurting because of this. So, with all the evidence laid out....I am to blame.
My dad is an alcoholic. He has been for as long as I can remember. He would wake up drinking and go through 60 some beers in less than 2 days. Well, a little over a month ago he quit cold turkey. My church and I prayed and prayed and he quit! I was so happy! I allowed him in my house and around my kids. He started going to church with us and was happy.
My dad called last night 2 times in a row and left a message on my voice mail. He didn't sound like his sober self. I know my dad and had a feeling he was drinking. He called from my aunts house, so I knew something was going on. I didn't call him back till this morning and could tell in his voice that he was drinking again. He asked how I was and the kids and I told him fine. When I asked him how he was he said he was being a "pendejo". I asked why and he said "because that's who I am." He then let me go. I just knew he was drinking but didn't know the extent of what had happened. I went on my facebook and had a message from my uncle saying I'm sorry about your dad. He mentioned that he heard from another uncle and then saw in the paper. He asked about fines and such. I had no idea what he was talking about. I sent him a message asking what was going on and then decided to look online my self. This is what I found. I changed his name to "My Dad" and made the locations blank.
"My Dad, 50, of , , was arrested for alleged DWI subsequent to the investigation of a motor vehicle collision at Road and Avenue. My Dad was additionally cited for alleged careless driving, no insurance and display of current valid registration. My Dad was incarcerated at to appear in Municipal Court"
How is it my fault? Well, a few weeks ago I starting getting sick. It's been so hot here and was making it worse. I walk around the house in a shirt or a nursing tank and boy shorts. I would never let my dad see me like this so I haven't had him over. He would call and I wasn't good at returning his calls since I was too tired or just didn't want to talk. He went camping last weekend and came by before he left. I talked to him on Monday for a short while before he said he would call back. When he called back it was about time for me to go to bed so I didn't answer. He came by Tuesday the day all this happened in the early afternoon. It was too hot and I didn't want to put clothes on so I didn't answer the door.
If I would have kept going to church despite the way I have been feeling and relied on God to heal me, my dad would have been going to Church with us. If I would have just sucked it up and dealt with the heat then my dad could have came here and hung out instead of being in the middle of nowhere (where he lives alone). He wouldn't have had time to even think about drinking being around his grand kids. If I would have returned his call and talked to him....If I would have let him in my house the day this happened he could have hung out here spent the night and went to church on Wednesday. This would have never happened if I would have been a better daughter.
Dr. Jekyll says this isn't my fault and that he made that choice. But, I as a daughter should have known that my dad needed me and I let him down. My heart aches and I'm hurting because of this. So, with all the evidence laid out....I am to blame.
Meet Dr Jekyll AND Mr Hyde.
No I'm not married to two people....well in a sense I am. We will call him Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. Why? Because that's who he really is. I'm not married to Mr Hyde a few times a week or month, but I see him a few times a day. When I see him I just wish Dr Jekyll will come back soon.
Who is Dr Jekyll? He is the man I met, the man I fell in love with. The one I used to stare at while my heart would skip a beat. The one our kids love. The one that could leave me breathless with just a glance. The one I gave my heart to. The one I married. The one who I wanted to be the father of my children. The one I love with all my heart.The man I trust. The one that we can be ourselves around. He is funny, sweet, handsome, smart, caring, sensitive, thoughtful, trustworthy, loving and I could go on. Yes, he was MY perfect man until I met someone else.....
Who is Mr Hyde? He comes in a blink of an eye, the one I hate to look at. The one I can't stand to be around. The one that makes me cringe when he touches me. The one I don't like. The one I want to divorce. The one that makes my stomach turn when he kisses me. The one that doesn't care about anyone but himself. The one that lies. The one that abuses pills. The one that is always screaming. The one that is always swearing. The one I don't want my kids to be near. The one I see more and more of everyday. He is rude, hateful,lazy, mean, ugly, careless, insensitive, ignorant, racist, spiteful, antagonistic and I could go on. If he would go away and NEVER come back I wouldn't care, cry or be sad. I would be the most happiest woman in the world to have Dr Jekyll forever!
S
Who is Dr Jekyll? He is the man I met, the man I fell in love with. The one I used to stare at while my heart would skip a beat. The one our kids love. The one that could leave me breathless with just a glance. The one I gave my heart to. The one I married. The one who I wanted to be the father of my children. The one I love with all my heart.The man I trust. The one that we can be ourselves around. He is funny, sweet, handsome, smart, caring, sensitive, thoughtful, trustworthy, loving and I could go on. Yes, he was MY perfect man until I met someone else.....
Who is Mr Hyde? He comes in a blink of an eye, the one I hate to look at. The one I can't stand to be around. The one that makes me cringe when he touches me. The one I don't like. The one I want to divorce. The one that makes my stomach turn when he kisses me. The one that doesn't care about anyone but himself. The one that lies. The one that abuses pills. The one that is always screaming. The one that is always swearing. The one I don't want my kids to be near. The one I see more and more of everyday. He is rude, hateful,lazy, mean, ugly, careless, insensitive, ignorant, racist, spiteful, antagonistic and I could go on. If he would go away and NEVER come back I wouldn't care, cry or be sad. I would be the most happiest woman in the world to have Dr Jekyll forever!
S
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